You can’t express what you feel to someone. Cause you know, you’re too late.
For the first time
It has been a long time for me not share anything on blog since i knew that my mom used to know my blog and read everything inside it. Include my love life stories. Yeah, i know it’s so awkward. I also promised with my self, that i wont share my stories again on social network. But now on, i’ve broken it. I just dont know with whom should i share and how to express it ryte now. This is the first time for me sharing story of mine on tumblr. I’m obviously won’t share it on twitter. Cause if i did, ‘he’ will know, and ‘he’ might thinks that i’m so disgusting or in indonesia we called it as ‘Ilfil’. okay…..I miss him, a lot. Almost a year i haven’t seen him yet. Idk what should i do ryte now. Everytime when i decided to mention or greet him, there’s always something in my mind and it said “who do you think you are?”, “You just his junior, not more”, “he has forgotten you”, etc. That makes me so discouraged. Everything that i do seems so wrong and I always think that I’m not brave enough to do that. That’s why i’d rather be quiet than make a move. But… I can’t handle it ryte now. I really miss him. I just want to meet and talk with him directly. Even if only once. I wish someday, we’ll meet again, in good situation. Wherever you stand and whatever you do now, i just can pray the best for you. Wish you luck wherever you go, kak.
Miley Cyrus - I’ll always remember you.
One day we’ll look back, we’ll smile, and we’ll laugh. But right now, we just cry.
